The Big C

A journey through Stage Four Cancer

The Eve Before Christmas Eve

on December 25, 2011

Saw Nate driving up 95 to get me to my Cancer Treatment Center before it closed.  The pain in my left groin and hip had just become too much and my light weight pain pills did nothing to stop the pain, they just induced sleep that was very easy to awaken from.

My physician’s assistant was waiting for me, even though I was late and keeping her on the job so close to Christmas,  The secretary Della was there too.  Della really didn’t have to wait, her day was over, but seeing her and Luchea made me smile through the pain, pain that I secretly was believing was bone cancer.  If I could call on God and ask for a blessing and only good things to happen, I would for Della and Luchea.  Their caring is soo real, it is touchable.

Off for a CAT scan.  Then off to the Emergency Room where I was gifted to meet only with people who cared, or people who knew my present situation, and I appreciated that.  As soon as possible I was given heavy duty pain pills, and as the night wore on, the pain began to lessen.

A sonogram to make sure there wasn’t any blood clots or blockages.  There weren’t any.

News from the CAT scan, the tumors are growing again, and there is even a few new ones.

After Christmas, so tomorrow, time to get my chemo appointments scheduled and start recieving them again.

Pain pills to get me through the day, but now that Christmas is over, I plan to take less of them and offer up the pain for the many people who need my offering up.

I’m sad, it hasn’t even been a whole three months that the tumors have been in remission.  And I’m a bit afraid because I can’t help but wonder if the chemo will stop the tumors, or if my situation will be like Elizabeth Edwards was finally, and be ineffectual.

It was hard to put on a happy face two days later and be merry.

Will this have been my last Christmas?


One response to “The Eve Before Christmas Eve

  1. Cheryl Jones says:

    I would go to a site called Do a search in the internet for natural health cures for cancer. There are many things you can do.

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in: Logo

You are commenting using your account. Log Out /  Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )


Connecting to %s

%d bloggers like this: